testing POZ for HIV turned out to be the best thing for me

Strange but true,finding out i was positive for the hiv virus has been a blessing for me as it has or i have changed the wrekless behavour and am now clean .I try to eat healthier foods but budget is tight .I often walk downtown to get my methadone and to the clinic fer pee tests,or else take a bus if its too hot.I am usualy by myself,but occasionly my brother Gary &Lynn will drop by to do their laundry,take showers and just relax here as well.I have a friend named Jerry who drops in everyday ,he often repeats itself and can be trying for other peoples as he is schcitzophrenic and an addict as well ,drugs affect the disabled too,or the abuse of drugs by the indivdual can cause more harm for said person.Well today it's raining and grey out and i am not sure if i am going to go out for a stroll or just sitting in watching movies,hey maybe i'll take jerry's bike to the store to get a couple movies ,i think i have seen most of them already !So,i am alone and its times like this that i wish i had a girlfriend or wife or partner in life,to try and help me through the strife,the worst is over in my life,and now i am clean,and at peace so all i need now is the love from a woman(enter conference)I have found it almost Impossable to date cause i am POZ.It doesn't matter that i practice safe sex ,what girl would want to take that chance?no what i mean?so,i have been single for 2 years now and would like to find myself a wife and settledown to a nice peacefull life.Its alot different now as i do not have junkies hanging around my place all the time anymore just to keep me company as i have cut most of my ties to the coke and heroin dealers and havent done any in 11 months now,which is initself a miracle as to were i was 3 years ago.Thank GOD and his son Jesus Christ,for seeing me safe thus far,peace all!~~~~